Back To SAT

Even thought i got a 1960 on my SAT. which is an amazing mark for a 15 year old who takes the SAT for the first time , and it would suffice to get me early admission at AUB ( American University in Beirut ) , this score is 40 points away from my high aspiration of getting a 2000 :/
My pricipal and my parents expect more from me, everyone does !
I always feel like i am watched and every move i make is calculated and talked about, gossiped about.
its just too frustrating to know that sometimes in some cases you can't be who you really are because it is too provocative or it is not what ure expected to do....
Tommorow is always a better day , so Im back to SAT practice, thanks to my luck i still haven't forogtten anything I took from the begining of this school year. Inshallah its gonna be even easier than the first time, and my grade is going to be higher than the first time.
Cheers to high aspirations, We are who we Are !

The Pursuit to Nonconformity

     I have always believed that “I am the master of my soul”. I control what I want to become, my personality is my real emotions depicted in a beautiful way. I have found difficulties to conform to the prevailing attitudes and styles of my peers; well because I don’t want to conform, I want to shape my own attitude and My own style. I act as a nonconformist everyday life just keeps getting better for me.

         Each day passes by and I keep on learning g, those lessons help me change myself in a way. I always strive for perfection; knowing it doesn’t exist. But there was this one day where I tried to be as everyone else, one lesson I learned that day, DON’T. Everyone in school was so interested in this new show “Yogi Yo”, so I went home and watched it. The next day was a nightmare, I saw myself engage in conversations I would never have! I felt just like any other tree in the “Jungle”. I felt like a-normal person, so dull and unattractive, despair was my title. All the students were talking about the same subject, everyone was asking the same questions and I was part of the Conformity.

          From that day onward I thank god for making me realize how to become my own self I don’t want to be what other people want me to become, not what every program producer, songwriter, etc imagines his audience would be after viewing the media he has produced. I don’t want to lead this world into an age of equality, conformity, and unliveliness. If the is no variety in a certain society it would become meaningless; same old personalities, same old people, same old conversations!

           One lesson I learned from that day was that I should be proud of who I am, I shouldn’t wish to become a conformist! I must shape my own personality; since then I have been utterly refusing to be a stereotype, and I always will. I hope this message would be a wakeup call to all of you who wish to become normal; you are leading our world into an era of downright dull societies.    

- Riad Al-Soufi  

What is Soon ?

What is next ? where will we go ? Where are WE going ?
The day after tommorow, no one will ever predict the future no one will ever know what god has in this world for us ... We need him and without hin we would be null, worthless we wouldnt even be particles.
Many people dont understand how muhc god loves us.
Yes we have many troubles in our life, but they are a series of tests, quick tests we can pass easily without preperation. God Loves us and if he didnt he wouldnt give us the blessing of sight, the blessing of touch, and many other things we dont know exist because we didnt loose them.
Not even 500 years of praying and meditaion will suffice or outweight one blessing from god.
Try to live your life without feeling your surroundings maybe you will understand this more. Thank god and thank him Everyday, for we are helpless in front of his unprevailing power....
-Riad Soufi

Death Clock

          He just woke up in what seems to be an underground celar. The dust created a feeling of despair, he looked around him, but nothing was there but a clock, a vintage clock. A spray of blood blocked the view he couldnt see the time. He grabbed his shirt and cleaned the fresh red blood off, it was 6:00 PM he couldnt believe his eyes. Last time he remembers it was 12:00 AM ! With no light to shine his chamber he was left alone, surrounded by wallas of horror. He doesnt know were he is, after he realised the upcoming masquerade he began to mummer. All that happened in seconds, he began to hear the ticking of the clock. The irritation was unbearable, he began to think of destruction, he wanted to stop it ! He wanted to end its ticking for good!
         After he over came the sound he began to look around the room but not much was there to find, a tripod with sharp ends. He began to scream ! He couldnt endure this sufferring anymore, he imagined his corpse, with the sharp ends of the tripod penatrating his flesh ! The Horror was inexplainable. In a matter of seconds the clock stopped ticking, the walls around him collapsed, the chamber was destroyed and he woke up to find himself safe inside his bed. It was all, the work of the Devil.

By, Riad Al-Soufi.

The Renovation of My Life

Ever since I began praticing on my SAT's i haven't been catching up with the world that much. It has been hard to follow up with the news and friends, family, ect...
This vacation has given me a chance to improve socially, to realize who my real friends are and dump unwanted people out. I finally reached my goal of scoring at least 620 on my English and at least 760 in math and i feel so proud of my self. With these amazing scores i will be able to get a guaranteed early admmission to AUB in Beirut Lebanon. Seems like life is taking a better turn for me these days hope itll always stay like this.

" And so, it its " - Pretty Wild

SAT Overwhelm x_x

Practicing for the SAT is just overwhelming when you have school work and quizes. I wish we can get some time off school so we can havbe time to practice on our SAT's if Dar Jana is so INTO gettng those 800's on the SAT. Ok, i know it is possible to study both at the same time but it is  just overwhelming that some days i feel like i need a very long vacation ! I feel that im studying Too Much. And its just devestating. Anyone got any ideas ? Please help me go throught this :)
Thank You :)

Plastic surgery Freaks :)

People if you would like to call them people ! That are fake " Haifas " and " Nancis " filled with silicon , have huge vision problems. PEOPLE ! you need to open youre eyes and reveal the beauty that llie on your face BEFORE you do the surgery ! yes we cant argue that soome people really need the surgery because god gave them ugliness" . Where as Why does a complete Swan need an implant of silicon in her face or brests.
This is just another obssesive disorder woman have with their looks. They need to get over it before our world of womanizing beauty turns into a Walt Disney created world of Lil Bratz and Barbies !

My Idol

Shes has been my inspiration through the last year and she  always be. She is an  icon of independance and Humanity !
VOTTTTEEE VOOOTEEE VOTEEEE
Mother Monster needs us !
LADY GAGA !!!! <3
http://ema.mtv.co.uk/artists/lady-gaga
Vote now !!

Party fever

Yesterday's Fatayirji random party was actually quiete impressive. We finally got our hands on a new set of Loud speakers ! And they were really worth it !
I consider a party a place were i can let out all my anger my craziness. I feel like there is no tommorow there's just now and what i do wont make any difference so why not  ?
My Dream is to have a world were everyone can let go using what ever way he desires, without being critisized by the " outsiders "

                           "Dont ever care what they say , i'll live my life in My own way "

Wow !

Today i realised something really serious. As a part of my plan to figure out the truth i acted like a normal "Clown of the class" today, and to my surprise i realised that teachers actually ignore this student. They Always ignore the student even thought he stops being riduculous ! I Feel your pain former "Clown".
And from this moment on i will respect him, because sometimes he really wants to study but he doesnt get any attention from teachers. Even thought he has commited past mistakes and he is willing to change he gets no attention what so ever !

"Loathe who always annoys you and loose you're respect to him, but once he asks  for your

respect dont hesitate to give it back he really desires to change" - Riad Soufi

Selfish And Annoying People

Some people dont realize what they are doing in their lives.....I have come along many, many people that dont even know what they want to do ! They're always trying to take other people's attention ! -____-

And its severly annoying ! They "Think" or somehow "Believe" they are mature :) While all they are is a big pile of shit (excuse my language but thats what they really are). They become Arrogant human beings who belive they are more powerful than you are, they call you and absolutetly EVERYBODY ! Kids ! Well i think if they were mature enough they wouldn't have made such a naiive assumption......

"To Hell With You One Who Believes You Are Mature While Your Actions Prove You're Not". -Me

GET DOWN TO EARTH !  You still didn't hit 20 and you think that dancing in the middle of the street or laughing out of nowhere is immature ! Where teens that's what we do ! Our specialities are going crazy and being immature ! So don't you dare tell me that im "imbarrasing myslef" or "look at you, you're such a child".
Because only a child doesn't know how to behave and when to behave.
* You're a teen, you act & react crazily and carelessly .
* You're old enough, you act mature and you "behave" .

    Finally, I wouldn't blame you if you were actually mature in mind, body, and life, But you oviously aren't. So this time YOU grow up and YOU : "look at yourself you're imbarrasing yourself".
Bbye i know youre going to Buy a life :)

Self Welcome To Blog

Hellow Riad,
                   Welcome to Blog. I hope it will be a thrilling experience for myself. I came here looking for satisfaction ! I Just want to tell people what i think what i feel and what I Love-Hate. We all have desires and we work to satisfy them. I belive that "Blogging" will actually make me feel better.
                                                                                                              Greetings to all fellow Bloggers
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